Coming To Terms With Cancer

When I was twenty-one I had a poster on my wall, Max Ehrmann's Desiderata. I played the seven Coming To Terms With Cancer
single several times a day reading it out loud in time with the record. A year later I was held in detention by the drug squad; on unfounded charges, I may add. During the month in which I was the states guest, I found comfort and inner peace by constantly reciting the poem.

After hearing I had bladder cancer, I left the hospital to take the train back home; Berlin Eastern Cape. While waiting an hour for the train, and the hour ride back home, I silently recited Desiderata :

It is an inner peace I find by reliving the times I have drawn strenth from that poem


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